here’s a quick update, since writing is one of my new favorite things.... so at the ripe age of 22, i moved to brooklyn NYC from massachusetts. i left behind everything i knew. my family, my closest friends, my past memories. i seemingly could not find a stable, full time job here wherever i tried. i went from minimum wage job to minimum wage job, barely scraping away money for rent. i asked myself everyday how i got to this point and how do i keep going.
the past few months have been the most challenging ive had to go through so far in life. i witnessed multiple important people and things, just vanish from my everyday. that shock and sadness was something i’ve never felt before and was quite terrifying to me. i had to build myself from the ground up. i had to adjust to a living situation that i was not ready for in the slightest, due to being left to my own devices.
at first, days were filled with fear, walking crowded city streets aimlessly, missing my past more than anything. sleeping on a mattress on the ground, hardly affording groceries, hardly being able to get out of bed. days were filled with memories of my recent past and childhood when things were seemingly much easier.
sometimes things don’t work out as planned and you have to look deep inside yourself to find the courage to keep going, despite it all. you can’t let that sadness win. you can’t let that negativity overcome you. that’s not a healthy way to live at all. it will eat at you. trust me.
today i now have a full time, salary job at a non profit organization, catered towards helping people with mental/developmental disabilities. a rewarding position that i never thought i would attain due to what the world has given me so far, and how important people in my life have treated me.
i’ve made it past my darkest point but there’s still work to be done like anything else. everything is a work in progress. i’ve come to terms with that and am molding a future for myself now. ive made a solid group of friends here that i’m super grateful for. my future will be fulfilling im sure, but for right now, i’m just taking things day by day.